This was my creed when I began to work as a young man. I can recall making this statement often. At the time, I had no awareness of the philosophy I now practice and teach. I was not aware of the creative power of every word.
Then, I was part of a management team where everyone’s job was stressful. However, this was not the direct source of my problem. When a circumstance happened that involved my future and a decision needed to be made, my manager did not respond in a supportive manner. I interpreted his actions as betrayal. From this deep feeling of disappointment, I was emotionally crushed and at the same time, shocked into a new reality. I realized in that moment that I had given the control of my destiny to one single individual who now had power to determine my future.
I was in this predicament solely because the success of the organization was my first priority. I had compromised my personal vision and goals for the organization. I will not delineate the important personal sacrifices I made for my job. My first allegiance was to my job and to our team and I was on the bottom of my list. When the time came for my superior to demonstrate how m uch he appreciated all I had done to guarantee his success, my reward was his disloyalty.
The salt in the wound was his so-called enlightening statement which subsequently crushed my Spirit. He said, “Young man, there will come a time in your life when you will learn that if you don’t look out for number one, nobody else will.”
Afterwards, my manager saw something in my eyes. I knew this. He returned to my office shortly to apologize for what he had said. However, the person he left a few moments earlier was no longer there. I had instantly become a different person. I was no longer a team player. In that split second, I became bitter, resentful, angry and withdrawn.
I was to learn later that this was an emotional shock to my emotional body. Further, I was to learn that the genesis to many forms of mental sickness, physical sickness, unhealed relationships, lack of achievement and many other problems in life—can be traced back to earlier emotional blows in one’s life. Moreover, I was to learn that my healing could never come through medicine or remedies—but only by letting go of my past thoughts about what happened to me. And then further—I learned how to ask the Holy Spirit for help and I began to see the situation differently. As I did, I was able to forgive myself for the thoughts I held about the situation and in doing this all of my adversaries were forgiven—and different forms of sickness vanished from my life.
 For a full year following this incident I was sick and unable to work. I took a variety of medicines and remedies while the symptoms persisted. I went to medical doctors, psychologists and psychiatrists. The prescribed drug, valium, became my crutch. Unable to return to my job, eventually I was forced to retire due to these problems.
My medical diagnoses were: insomnia, neuro-circulatory asthenia, neuro-dermatitis, anxiety depression and other symptoms. I was a mess.
After this one year of illness, I learned how to meditate. Then I learned how to use the Spiritual Mind Treatment. I also learned to understand what really happened in my office on that heartless day. I discovered that the seeds I had planted ten years earlier were bearing fruit. “I’m not working longer than ten years on anybody’s job.” My own words and the desire of my heart had come to pass. I had not been able to leave the job under my own volition. Instead, my consciousness had to do the work. My consciousness (my own heart’s desire), created a situation or opportunity that would cause the decision to be made for me by default.
Would you believe that the date of retirement was exactly ten years to the month of my initial employment with this institution? 10 years!
The difficult realization for me to accept was the fact that my manager was a necessary player on the stage of my life. But I could not see this principle at work in my life until I was able to demonstrate forgiveness. How did I get to this point of realization?
A fellow employee was also experiencing tremendous challenges in his administrative position. Shortly after I left, he also left his job to start his own business. He was attending Founders Church , Los Angeles , California , where Dr. Bill Hornaday was the minister. Along with other friends from the job, we enrolled in the first year Science of Mind Class.
While the teaching was new to me, this way of life had always been my personal philosophy. I have always seen the glass half-full instead of half-empty. I was already successful in terms of having a happy family and social relationships, material prosperity and health. I had been a favored employee for all these years. So what happened? Why the sudden change in my life? Why was my world falling apart? I needed to find answers to these questions.
Shortly after enrolling in the Science of Mind Training, a symposium was offered on a Saturday at Founders Church featuring a number of prominent speakers. Among them was Dr. Daniel L. Morgan who approached the podium and more than 2000 people stood in thunderous applause.
I discovered that Dr. Dan was the founding minister of the Guidance Church of Religious Science, Los Angeles . There was nothing else for me to do but leave my friends at Founders Church in order to enroll in the class at Guidance Church . My instructors were Dr. Dan, Rev. John L. Bradford and Rev. Juanita B. Dunn. In my first year class of more than fifty students I found myself sitting alongside Rev. Dr. Michael Beckwith and Rev. Nirvanna Gayle who later became co-founders of Agape International Truth Center in Los Angeles .
 Rev. Juanita (who was then a practitioner) and I bonded immediately. My Spirit recognized the Spirit in her from “times past.” Even before I graduated from the basic classes, she invited me to co-facilitate personal growth workshops with her. I accepted this opportunity to have the experience of a life time with Rev. Juanita as my personal therapist and mentor. I had the opportunity to learn and apply the principles of this teaching with a personal tutor. Naturally, a breakthrough to healing began to occur as a result.
I learned how to use the basic tools taught in the Science of Mind: Meditation, Spiritual Mind Treatment and Affirmations. Through meditation I learned: I was not a victim of my past experiences; how to diagnose my illness from a spiritual perspective; and how to realize the mental cause behind my problems. After the underlying cause was revealed, I applied the five steps of Spiritual Mind Treatment. When the cause was healed, then all the symptoms named above simply dissolved. One by one, they completely vanished without the aid of medicine and remedies.
The last step in my healing was the use of affirmations to clean away the debris . . . and to hold on to the healing. Through the years, I have successfully held on to my healing by applying affirmations based on ideas similar to these found in the lessons from “A Course In Miracles:”
I am never upset for the reason I think
I do not know what anything is for.
I am not the victim of the world I see.
My grievances hide the light of the world in me.
Sickness is a defense against the truth.
Forgiveness ends all suffering and loss.
An important note :
What is important here is to know that the ideas and principles contained in this book are not based on just theory. I am able to speak, write and teach these principles because I have been challenged to demonstrate them.
Other details of this story from problem to healing are too lengthy to be included in this book.
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